Blood and October

I've been sleeping on grass

backyard that floats

sun wakes you early

and we make it

out of that

thing I don't understand

it does things to you

shaking shadows

embers and fires

and all of those masks

and painted faces

even the smallest nose grows,

we make it out of that night time

just in time to catch our breath

assume our

positions heaving and lurching

and running and panting in that

world outside of this

world outside of a picture

I developed of you in

a very dark room

star dust found it's way

and took me by surprise

and I barely

recognize you,

in that

coat with that

laugh it could

strike a match

I never knew you to be

so blue and

so cruel

I never knew you to say

things like,

I love you

never knew you to say

words

smaller than mountains

quieter than caves

clinging to hope

crumbling scaffolding

folding time inside

of your pocket

hiding things that

are mine inside of that smile,

making up that future

blood and october

pine and cement

rain and ashes

and that dockyard forgiveness

I never knew you to say words

that could break easy,

and I cried and

you knew

that I didn't

love you.